Yes, I'm a girl. I laugh harder when I try to explain why I'm laughing. I walk into a room and forget why I was there. I count on my fingers in math class. ..I lie sometimes to hide the pain. I say it is a long story when it's really not.All right i confess a release the parking brakes after driving for a while.. I cry a lot more than you think I do. I get attached to people who care even a little about me.But I love to be all of that..I love to be a GIRL :)
Saw this post on Facebook today, and god, it really got me thinking. Could it be that I was not a girl at all?
I'm not a giggler. Even though I'm a girl. I don't laugh for no reason.
I'm not absent-minded. Even though I'm a girl. I might have slipped since I had a child, but overall I think I've become more aware in the past few years.
I have NEVER left the parking brake on while I was driving. In fact, I believe I'm a better driver than N. Even though I'm a girl. I have a lot of angst that comes out while I'm driving, therefore I believe I'm very well suited to drive in Delhi.
Agreed, I used to get attached to people who cared even a little about me, but I'm over that now. I'm older, more sensible. Plus, it's been really long since my last challenge.
That brings me to a totally different topic, actually.
Do people only "improve" when they don't really have any other choice?
Take, for instance, this friend of mine. She was doing, well, a whole lot of people when we were in college. She continued doing a whole lot when we both started working in the same office, including the super boss who was like 60 at the time. OK, she was probably not doing him (what can I say, I'm a uncharacteristically naive in this matter), but she was definitely purposely giving him a hard-on just to ensure a promotion (or maybe not even something as specific as that, but just because she liked playing with fire, albeit a dying one).
Anyway, so she's married now and has two kids and everything and lives, like, in the back of beyond. But ever so often, she gets a glimpse of what her life could have been, either when she meets friends who live in the city or in other countries, or when the old dying flame revisits briefly.
But other than that she's totally "improved", focused on her kids, making sure she butters up her husband's boss' wife so that her husband keeps getting his promotions...the works.
And yet, when she came here to visit us last year, one wondered if she had really changed.
And I think the consensus was, which she herself led us to, that she simply doesn't get the opportunity any more. I believe the exact words were, "Where does one have the time?"
Who knows what she'd have done with it had it come knocking?

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